Planetshakers change so much after one year of not being around there. I don’t know why they choose yellow subtitles on the binding red and white background. Hanging around my old urban life gang brings back much memories. Not that I have much memories with them, cos we don’t usually hang out a lot, only after church. Getting together once in a while in the city can be quite good and fun.
I really don’t know what to do if I were to think about leaving OCF. I don’t have the intention to leave now cos I think I’m still growing. I have to bear in mind that I might be reaching my plateau of growth pretty soon. What should I move on to? Citylife has been the church I’ve been going to weekly since the end of last year. I really find the message there much more applicable. However, I feel like a sit in visitor every week cos I don’t really make much effort trying to get to know other people. Every week after church, we’ll still hang out with the same group of people for lunch and there’s no sense of belonging to that church at all. Where as for planetshakers, I’ve got a fix group of friends to hang out with and they are still the same group of people I’ll stick around with even though I haven’t been attending their church for about a year.
I know that my spiritual preference is really not shakers even if I really like being there. Citylife just feel like a mini OCF kind of outing every week. I know I should probably to try the life group or something but what if I have to start all over again like how I started of in OCF? That one year of not being able to be myself, that one year of trying harder to fit in. How long will it take to become comfortable in a new christian group all over again? What if I hated Citylife’s life group like how much I didn’t like OCF in year 1?
People always say stuffs like : Haiyah, can one la. You so sociable.
I’m really not that sociable if I don’t feel comfortable.
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Some stupid fish tart disturb my blogging moments just because he want to show off that he’s finally in a relationship. Not that I need to know. Anyway congrats you despo fella. You’re officially not desperate anymore! (Or so I hope)
SEE? Everyone is getting together! What kind of a year is this? All my friends are hooking up and I’m just sitting around ageing+ physically growing.
(I need a camera, and if I have one, this will be where my picture is going to be.)
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at first i was quite reluctant to go, cos of the stupid lit review, 2 phys lab reports, phys test and dev2011 report that’s all due next week. 
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things just got better awhile later. she’s one person that i wont feel awkward with even tho i havent seen her for a super long time.
i didnt get to share those stuffs i’ve been meaning to tell her cos there were too many others around. but getting back together with an old friend certainly makes me a happier person for the day. wah, we’ve been in melbourne long enough to call you an old friend.
i miss you, old friend. catch up soon! heart to heart kind.
i’m starting to treasure what i have in clayton ocf. melb uni was good but different in a way. i thought it shrunk quite a bit too. i wonder what my life would be if i had stayed in melb uni with trace.
sometimes i think God is a big awesome weirdo. the way he works is way beyond our imagination. i realise that He got this really weird habit of making things look as tho it sucks big time, then he’ll find a way to convince us that things weren’t so bad after all.
remember first year? the girl on the picture was the one who heard me cry abt how sucky clayton was. how envious i was of her cos she had so much fun with her cell group. and how i wished i was in melb uni ocf with her then i wouldnt feel so miserably left out.
now i just thank God for all that i have in clayton. i wonder how long this “bliss” is going to last. at least for now, i thank God for friends. thank you for ym and jh.
i wish everyone in this world will have friends, and everyone in this world will NEVER ever feel left out.
